Chapter 10
Padlock
We ended up back on the beach, wandering aimlessly. Jacob was still smug for having arranged my escape.
"Do you think that will be looking for you?" he asked, almost hopeful.
'No'. I was sure. "But on the other hand will be furious with me tonight."
picked up a stone and threw it into the waves.
"Then do not come back," he insisted.
"Charlie would be very happy," I replied sarcastically.
"I bet he would not mind."
I did shrug. I do not be surprised if Jacob was right [...]. The blatant preference for my friends Charlie Quileute was obvious. I wonder if it would reacted the same way knowing that the alternative was between werewolves and vampires.
"So, what is the latest scandal of the pack?" I asked frivolous.
Jacob stopped suddenly and stared at me shocked.
"What is it? It was a joke. "
"Oh." He looked away.
waited to start again to walk, but she seemed lost in thought.
"Is there really any scandal?" I insisted.
Jacob grinned. "I forgot how it is if you have someone beside
who always knows everything. Keep quiet and private space in the mind. "
for a while 'we walked in silence on the pebbly beach.
"What is it?" I asked finally. "What's all in your head already knows?".
hesitated for a moment as if it were not sure what was about to tell. Then he said: "Even had the Quil imprinting. With him are three. We're starting to get worried. Perhaps it is more common than the legends say .... " He turned toward me and stared at me eyes without speaking, his brow furrowed by the concentration.
"What are you looking at?" I asked awkwardly.
sighed. "Nothing."
Jacob walked on. Almost without thinking I reached over and took her hand. Through the rocks in silence.
I thought of how we should look, hand in hand on the beach - a couple, certainly - and I wondered if I should oppose. But Jacob had always been so ... there was no reason to fret. is like no, but who are they kidding?
"Why Quil imprinting is a scandal? "I asked when it was clear that he would not continue. "Perhaps it is the latest?".
"It has nothing to do."
"So what's the problem?".
"It's another one of those legends. Never cease to surprise us that they are all true? "He murmured.
"I want to tell? Or should I guess? ".
"You'll never guess. So, as you know, Quil is back with us soon. So has never attended much in Emily's house. "
"Even Quil had imprinted on Emily?" I exclaimed.
"No! I told you that you can not guess. At home were her two grandchildren Emily and Quil ... Claire has known. "
paused. I pondered for a moment.
"Emily does not want his nephew to be with a werewolf? Reasoning a bit 'hypocrite,' I said.
But I understood because he saw it. I thought of the long scars that had scarred his face and the whole right arm. Sam had lost control once, beside her. And it was ... I had seen enough pain in the eyes of Sam as he watched what he did to Emily. I understood why she wanted to protect his nephew.
"Please could you stop guessing? You are way off. Emily does not care about this, the fact is that, well, 'is a bit' too early '.
"In what sense?".
Jacob stared at me. "Do you promise not to judge, okay?".
I nodded cautiously.
"Claire has two years," said Jacob.
began to rain. I blinked furiously as the drops hit me the face.
Jacob waited in silence. As usual, not wearing a jacket, splashing of the rain filled the black T-shirt and dripped from his matted hair. I looked into his eyes, impassive.
'Quil had the imprint ... with a girl two years? "I finally managed to ask.
"It happens." Jacob shrugged. He bent down to pick up another stone and flew along the bay. "So the legends say."
"But it's a girl," I protested.
His eyes were dark and ironic. "Quil most will not grow old," he recalled in a tone a bit 'sour. "The patient just a few decades."
"I do not ... I do not know what to say."
I tried with all my strength not to be critical, but in truth I was horrified. Since I discovered that they were not guilty of the murders of which they suspected, the behavior of wolves I was more annoyed.
"You're judging evil", accuses me. "You read it in his eyes."
"Sorry," mumbled, "is that scares me a bit '."
"I do not like you think, you did not understand anything," Jacob defended his friend with sudden vehemence. "I see it is, I have seen with his eyes. There is nothing romantic in all of this, not for Quil, not now. " He made a long sigh, frustrated. "It's hard to describe. It is not love at first sight, really. ... It is more a shift of gravity. When you see her, suddenly is not over the Earth that keeps you attached to him. It is her. And nothing matters more than her. You know that she would do anything for her ... You become whatever you would have everything they need, whether it is a protector, a lover, a friend, or brother. Quil will be the best, the best big brother a girl ever had. No child on the planet will receive more care and attention than the little one. When she is older and will need a friend, he'll be the man most comprehensive, reliable and faithful she has ever known. And when she is grown, will be as happy as Emily and Sam. " Speaking of Sam, a strange tone, almost cut off his bitter voice.
His words gave me the chills. How could it be something so absurd? It could not be so sudden.
"Claire has a choice?".
"Sure. But why should not choose it in the end? He will be his perfect half. There will be only for her. "
thing I did not understand why the put in anxiety. From the way he spoke, he was an unstoppable, irreversible chemical reaction, a point of no return. And if one day it happened to him? If I got the hot hand of my great dream and shortly after he had imprinted with a stranger?
walked in silence for a moment, then I stopped to throw a stone into the ocean. He fell on the beach after a few meters. Jacob laughed.
"Do not we all have superhuman powers," I muttered. "To you when you think will happen?" [...].
His answer was plain and straightforward. "Never." My heart beats made three in one, as it was fast.
"It is an uncontrollable instinct or not?" asked immediately reconstructed.
He was silent for a while '. Without realizing it we had taken them both to walk slowly.
"In theory, no," he admitted. "It's about" seeing ", the one that you should be allocated."
"And you think that there is because you have not seen it yet?" I asked skeptically. "Jacob, you have seen yet very little of the world. Even less of me. "
"Yes, it's true," he said softly. Suddenly she gave me a piercing look. "But I'll never see any, Bella. I see only you. Even when I close my eyes and try to think of something else. Ask Quil or Embry. I'm making them mad. "
I aimed my eyes on the stones.
We had stopped. The only sound was the waves crashing on the shore and covered the noise of the rain.
Try as I might, I could not find air to inflate the lungs and allowing me to breathe.
But he must not say, I had put too much anxiety on him! His words could be thrown to the wind, uttered in ignorance of a kindred spirit hidden somewhere. Looking for her eyes without knowing it. And the day that Jacob would find him, he would forget any statement to me. I could not afford to be more potholes. Edward was gone, but I still loved and still loves me. But Jake would not have ever loved. I would never have been anything, but for me it was everything. The dried-up glue that held together the fragments of my heart, would not resist a shot like that.
Suddenly, this new side of werewolves froze my indecision.
"Maybe I'd better go home," I whispered.
"No," she protested, surprised by this conclusion.
I looked at him again. Now anxiety dominated his eyes, as if gliel'avessi transmitted at that moment.
"You have all day free, right? The bloodsucker is not back yet. "
I threw a dirty look.
"No offense," he added quickly.
"Yes, I have the whole day off. But Jake .... "
He raised his hands. "Sorry, really. I did not want to upset you ... is that ... "but did not finish the sentence. He became suddenly embarrassed and did not know where to look.
better.
did not want to start a conversation that would eventually reveal to my thoughts. I felt that was not a good idea.
Then his face lit bronze with a smile.
"Come on, Bella. Let's go home and take the bikes. You have to drive regularly if you want to keep coached. " A change of topic was what we wanted.
"I do not think I'm allowed."
"By whom? From ... sucks to be him? ".
"He he, nasty wolf," I replied, with tongue in tow.
We laughed, and instantly returned the Jacob me most was not sunny and warm.
Patience for imprinting. As long as we remained just friends, there would be no problems. There would be no broken hearts, already badly reduced start. I decided to close the lock of my heart and hide the key inside my soul.
The rain softened and turned into mist.
"Do not tell anyone," he promised.
"Apart from all your friends."
seriously shook his head and raised his right hand. "I promise I will not think about."
laughed. "If I'm hurting, it is because I tripped."
"Whatever you say."
drove the motorcycle on the streets secondary around La Push until the rain made it too muddy, so he insisted that Jacob would faint if he had not eaten right away. When we entered the house, Billy greeted me without discomfort, as if my sudden reappearance meant only that I wanted to spend a day with my friend, without complications.
After eating the sandwiches prepared by Jacob, went into the garage and helped him clean the bike. I went there for months, ever since Edward had returned, but I felt the atmosphere of special occasions. It was one of the many afternoons in the garage.
"How nice," I said while Jacob took the hot drinks from the basket. "This I missed the place. "
smiled, looking at the roof over our head arranged. "Yes, I believe. All the splendor of the Taj Mahal, without the trouble and expense of traveling to India. "
"At Washington's little Taj Mahal," brindai with the can in his hand.
touched with her.
"Remember last Valentine's Day? I guess that was the last time you came here. That is, the last ... until the situation has remained normal. "
laughed. "Of course I remember. I promised you a lifetime of servitude in exchange for a box of chocolates. Some things do not forget, you know. "
Rise with me. "Right. Slavery ... let's see '. Do I have to be a good idea. " Then he sighed. "They look like the past years. It was another era. Happier. "
did not know whether to agree or not. Apart from the dark period without Jake, and my shameful adventures, I've been good, and I'm still good. It's not so bad being single. Besides, there had been for a lifetime. E then I was not alone, I was still surrounded by friends to whom I would never have given up for anything in the world. Though the world was talking about was fairytales.
I stared at the wet forest, outside the door. It had started raining again but it was hot in the small garage, next to Jacob. He was comfortable as a fireplace.
His fingers touched my hand. "Things have really changed."
"Yes," I said and stretched out his arm to caress the bike's rear wheel. "I hope Billy does not say anything today ...." I stood in silence, uncertain.
"It will not. Not if the league on his finger as Charlie probably would have done. You're lucky, you know, if I can be very spiteful, "he said before gulping down the contents of the can as I looked at the corner of my eye.
I raised an eyebrow. "What do you mean?".
He stopped drinking and distorted her face with an arrogant sneer.
"Well, I imagined a scene, when we were keeping an eye on the area to see if the Cullens returned. I figured you'd fall like a baked pear in his arms, and that he will prevent you from seeing me. At that point I made sure that Charlie will put on punishment, so at least you would not even see him. We would have been equal. "
"Thanks for the cooked pear. And tell me, Jake, how Charlie would put me in detention? "I asked crossing his arms. It was not difficult to imagine the response.
eloquent Jacob glanced at the two bikes next to us.
Sgranai eyes with astonishment, though there had guessed. "I would have hated to death! And in your beautiful home movie you have not thought about the regret that would give Charlie? Hoped for was a heart attack as happened to Henry Clearwater? ".
raised his eyebrows and started, but did not answer. Of course I had not thought of. Sbuffai, thanking the fates that had not gone as he had imagined.
"Anyway, why do not you do it?" I asked, curious and a bit 'annoyed.
"Well," she bit her lip and avoided looking at me. "Because I had begun to forget, finally. I remembered when we talked about in your room, as to why you had not thrown. I thought maybe you would not have behaved like a cooked pear, "he said sheepishly. Then my eyes crossed and his eyes shone in my. "What those considering other alternatives."
We were silent for a moment. I remembered with embarrassment that night when I had told the truth and I had forgiven her. Then he cleared his throat. "So I saved," she smiled with mock innocence.
'kind of you, "I said sarcastically. "You're right, you can be very mischievous."
"True, but I did not, so relax and let's enjoy the day and hot drinks. Drinking with you have a different taste, you know? "He said carelessly.
"I bet it looks like the pear," grumbled looking at him sideways. Held back a laugh.
"Cotta", pointed out in a deep voice. I gave him a playful push and burst out laughing again.
Ricomposti by happiness, sipping from cans. There was no embarrassment in that silence. Jacob felt sigh plan.
"What?" I asked.
"I have a question for you, or rather, I have several, but I prefer to get this for now."
m'irrigidì instinct. Some of his questions were digging too deep, Stan things that I was not the case. O to which I had just resigned.
"Tell me."
hesitated, staring at the can you look it. "Because the time that we met all three in the woods behind your house, you said they were not my business if you ... if he had bitten?" At the last words he shuddered visibly.
"I do not know," I admitted. "I said without thinking. At the time I felt annoyed, feeling that you wanted to intrude in my personal decisions. I do not like to feel obligated, "I answered, shaking his head and frowning eyebrows.
He was silent and meditate on my words.
"Remember what I said then, eh?" I murmured.
"What have you changed your mind," he said without taking his eyes from the can with air unconvinced.
"Exactly."
"Your eternal indecision terrifies me, Bella. The day I'll come back to him ... "the voice broke and restart with the tremors. Then I flashed with a black eye. "If I wanted to do that nonsense again, I do not think we could be friends, "said Hard.
winced. As I feared, that choice would have cost our friendship.
"It will not happen, Jake. Since I tried to fly, I realized many things. It was an old fad, but I do not want more now, "I said quietly.
"I hope both. I can not imagine anything worse than to see you turned into a fetid parasite! In an enemy to kill, "he said in a wave of sudden anger. He shook the can in his hand as if it were made of paper. "Not to mention the consequences', he shook his head with a bitter smile. "Our great-grandparents agreed to keep the peace because the Cullens had sworn to be different, to not be dangerous to humans. They promised that they would never killed anyone nor transformed. If you are to the word, the pact would make more sense. Again become the same as any other vampire. And then, wherever they are ... if we find them .... "
"But Jake, you have not already broken the covenant?" I asked intimidated. "I foresaw that you should not have to reveal to anyone the existence of vampires? You with me you did. This does not make the deal more or less useless? ".
Jacob did not appreciate the clarification. looked away and lowered his voice. "Yes, I have betrayed the covenant even when I did not believe these stories. And I'm sure they were informed. But this does not entitle them to do something like that. One hand washes the other not. If you argue with what I've done, have only one alternative. The same alternative We will if and when they break the covenant : attack. Declare war. " Then finally crossed my eyes. "So if you keep your blood-sucking, see to remember," he warned grimly.
shivered. I realized that I had not fully understood the matter. And the more things I knew, the less I liked it.
"One more reason not to. But really do not understand why all this hatred, "I shook my head with a troubled countenance.
"The reasons are, and how," he muttered.
sighed resignedly. I looked at the watch worn on the wrist, had become a bit late. "Jake, you better come home Cullen. Alice is already quite worried, I will not cause additional problems. "
"You can worry about what he wants, you're safe here. Sleeping on the couch is a sacrifice I gladly accomplish, "he said with a smile.
"Please, Jake, Charlie knows that I am from them. It seems one of those excuses to spend the night by her boyfriend rather than by friends. " I noticed too
later than what I just said. She blushed violently in my own words. It was too difficult to keep at bay his thoughts in his presence.
let it pass from a friend's sound better? "He suggested, and I smiled with closed lips. Her eyes sparkled and deep blacks unable to contain the emotion. They were no intention to hide the view that the first sounds better than the second.
closed my eyes and I laughed at his attempt to pull a trick play on words. "Yes." Rise too embarrassed and excited. "Think of it this way: if you let me go home give me the opportunity to scold me for Edward kidnapped and forced to escape with a dangerous werewolf crazy, "I promised cheerful, and he could no mistake that I would.
Or maybe not. In the end I managed to return back to La Push, in a very funny one at that.
Jacob's face exploded with enthusiasm. "You could say this before? I'll take you now. " I raised an eyebrow as if to remind him of something. "Well, at least until the border of their territory," added a little 'disappointed. Maybe he wanted to attend the scene. Risi and the scompigliai hair more than they already were.
"Come on let's go," urged.
drag two bike out in the rain and muddy when we were in the lane, jumped into the saddle and start the engine. The rear wheel spat a cascade of mud into the garage. Jacob support me at my own speed, I saw his joyous smile in the dark of night. We were soaking wet.
'Bells, now I have to go back, "he shouted to drown the roar of motorcycles. "I'll call you tomorrow, okay?".
"Ok, 'Night, Jake, "but my voice could never overcome the noise. Jake was able to feel the same.
"Good Night Bells" he said. "Let them see who you are," he added, laughing loudly, before turning on himself to go back. I made his eyes to heaven and accelerate towards the Cullen house.
The wind almost made me freeze the rain on your skin and halfway already chattering teeth. The bikes were not the ideal medium in Washington State. [...] I pushed the bike up to the cavernous garage of Cullen and I was not surprised find Alice waiting for me, perched gracefully on the roof of the Porsche, stroking the yellow paint.
"I could not drive it even once." He sighed.
"Well, if you were not all so stubborn, you would have used to accompany me to the border of the Quileute, instead of forcing her to flee on a former scrap," I objected.
"I'll think," she said quietly. Then he looked anxiously my clothes wet.
"You need a hot shower," said jumping to the ground lightly.
"Yes."
pursed her lips, watching me closely. "You look like whole."
"I whole," I corrected.
He nodded, but his eyes betrayed curiosity. wanted details, such as blind as it was when I mixed the wolves.
"I want to go to Olympia tonight."
"No, really. Can I go home? ".
He grimaced.
"Do not worry, Alice," I said. "If it's easier for you, I will."
"Thanks," sighed relieved.
That evening I went to bed early and I squatted again on the couch. But he could not get sleep now.
Now that I was alone with my thoughts, I could think about the effects of imprinting in uncontrollable Jacob told me about.
After that revelation I was afraid that during the recurring dream, my brain processes it in a way too catastrophic. I thought that Jake would have disappeared completely from my field of vision, and everywhere I turned I saw it no more.
I concentrated and tried to reason. It was stupid of me to think that a simple dream, the result of my uncertainty, could somehow affect real life. Hardly have found her soul mate back in motion, in the woods at night, wet from the pouring rain and cold. It also appeared that would not even find.
I sighed, thinking how I wanted to talk to someone, as happened with Angela. I had good vent, I needed it, with all the things I had to keep me inside.
Talk to Alice? No, it was too reluctant towards of werewolves, also made common cause together with Edward to keep me away from them. Esme? Maybe, but would support my concerns in the hope that return to the arms of his son. Charlie was not even take into account: with him the effect was the opposite, was the founder of Team Jacob.
The thought made me laugh and allowed me to sleep.
As I expected, I had the same dream as always. But it was not as I had imagined. It was short, almost a flash, but showed how it was changed my conflict.
Edward was away, I saw it but it was much farther away than usual. Next to me at a distance far below, Jacob I looked at with a serious face. The hand always outstretched towards me.
I was away from Edward but I saw no problems. I was close to Jacob, but not even tried to raise his hand to touch him. Something was stopping me. I looked down to see what it was.
My arms were tied in the chest by a chain. It was invisible, but I knew it was there.
"I can not Jake," was all he could to tell him, before the scene suddenly changed. The next vision that I was incredibly real. A long and unexpected conversation.
I was just in this room, but back for one night. I was standing at the window and in front I was Rosalie, statuary, perfect and surprisingly friendly.
The feeling I felt towards him was weird. It was as if there was an understanding, as if she understood my discomfort and in some ways you could help me. It was just a dream, my dream, so I could say and do what I wanted.
"What are you Bella? You look sad, "said Rosalie suddenly with his melodious voice.
"It is true, there is one thing that bothers me, and it is strange that you're here. I really need to talk to someone who is not too partisan ' I said hesitantly.
"Sure, Bella, tell me," said Serena.
"Here ... you know I love you very much for Edward, but they are no longer in love with him?".
"Yes, I know. Try to settle your affection, but is not happy, "he said sulkily. "However, I understand you well. I know how it feels when you are betrayed, "he added including but tough.
"Yeah, but this is not the problem. The fact is that ... I feel something for someone else, "confessed to diverting my gaze from his. "Even if I do not know exactly what."
"Your friend wolf?" He asked. He nodded his head. "And what is the problem? Apart from the danger of his being. He is not you? ".
"Oh no no, he is, indeed ... like me who are stuck. I am very afraid, there's one thing that scares me to death, but I need to hear what you think, and you have to put aside the history of the danger. He is human, his heart beats, blood flows in the veins and .... "
"With him you would not be forced to change, and you have your whole family," he concluded.
"Yes, the day that I wanted the least."
Rose took a breath and looked at me very serious expression. "I'll be as objective as possible, Bella. What troubles you? ".
"imprinting," I confessed, and though it was only a dream, I felt stupid to understand that the problem was just that.
Rose raised her eyebrows and pursed lips perfect blondes.
"I understand, is a very simple problem to address. Are you afraid to suffer again, right? Are you afraid that you leave as it did worse than Edward? ".
"Yes."
"Have you considered that may not happen?" He asked. "What you're doing problems at all?".
"Well, he did not even want to find, or rather it is the first to say that did not happen. He says he only thinks of me, that is sweeping the others in the flock. When you had yet to return, said he would fight to the last drop of blood for me at his side. " In sleep she felt her cheeks becoming warmer.
Rosalie smiled and his face reflected the glow of the moon marble.
"How sweet. I would have given anything for me to say words like that when I was in life. "
embarrassed smile. True, it was nice that I had said. He was sincere. And it was his sincerity that terrified me.
"Do you understand why it scares me? How do I let go if he expects his soul mate to breed? "I asked, slightly flustered. "Each of his word lose its meaning, you have no idea how bad I would? Can not stand, "I shook my head trying to hold back the panic.
"Bella, the imprinting is a magical bond, a love that comes to artificial issues being a werewolf. But you are kindred spirits, and his love is born of itself, has blossomed and grew spontaneously in a natural manner over the course of time. It's not something sudden and without reason. Do not think that they are lies, and not live in the nightmare of something that might not happen, "he said holding my hand in a rush of emotions that controlled barely.
This confirmed that it was a dream. Was not she behave like that. "I'm not a great expert in these situations sentimental, but I think all is lost left. Do you think that does not suffer too if he were found now its imprinting? No, I do not think so. And I think you regret of not having lived even a single second of his love. Do you regret not avegli told what to feel for him. " I stood shocked by his words. The prospect of having remorse was anything but friendly. But I was still too afraid.
"But Rose, when they'll leave me. I do not want to suffer again, "I insisted.
Rose shook her head and I also took her other hand.
'It would pay a price, however, Bella. You have suffered for Edward, but you managed to move forward, you have passed and passed. We will always be close to you, Bella, you would not like the first one, "he said looking at me with eyes most sincere and comprehensive I have ever seen. The hope that I was trying to send me feceva me want to loosen its grip on key ... and try.
Then the scene changed again, disconnect completely from the previous year. I was on the beach and beside me there was Jacob, his brow furrowed and his eyes concentrated as this morning. She stared at me so insistent, as if trying desperately to something in my face. Or maybe in my eyes ...
That scene I had experienced, but I quickly realized what he was doing. Jacob wanted to have the imprint, but only one person. He was looking for the mechanism to fire.
I slowly woke up, not open his eyes, and I was in slumber.
Something told me that there was still time. But how? And it was my feeling I was affected or the words of Rosalie in my dream?
Surely the second option.
I was not willing to believe that Rose and Jacob were right. There was nothing safe in what they said. And I was so cowardly that I preferred to take refuge in my fears, rather than jeopardize the fragility of my heart. Furthermore, having already suffered the pains of suffering neglect, my soul refused to return the key to my heart to re-open the lock.
No, my heart was safe, I'd have saved in advance this time, and I had no intention of losing that advantage. Jake and I, we were just friends. We could not afford more.
I could not afford more.
gave up and opened his eyes to doze. I was immediately drawn to the white figure of Edward, sitting comfortably on the bed in front of me.
"Sorry," she whispered so softly that his voice seemed to come from the night. "I did not wake up."
"Do not worry," I said quietly. "I was not asleep."
M'irrigidii waiting for an outburst - his and mine - but the darkness of the room all was calm and quiet. [...] There was no tension. The atmosphere was enveloped by a sense of peace, not as the calm before the storm but as a clear night, not even touched by the idea of a blizzard.
"I heard your message," he said quietly. "I do not want you to hate me."
"I do not hate you, Edward," I said to sit on the couch. "But you're too much. I just want to spend some 'quality time with my friends in La Push, that's all. "
"I find it very pericolso," he muttered.
"I love the danger," I insisted.
"I know. There was something in its acid voice definitely had seen the bike in the garage. "I'm sorry. I was wrong. It is easier to see things from the perspective when you're here safe. " He reached an arm marble to take my hand gently. "When I try to get away I lose a little 'head. I do not think I'll go back that far. Not worth it. "
smiled. "You did not find even a puma?".
"Yes, eventually. But not worth all this anxiety. I'm sorry I asked Alice to take hostage, anyway. It was a bad idea. "
"Yes."
"Do not do it again."
"Okay," he said quietly.
I feel better now that I had apologized, he was sincerely sorry. I had put forward, although nothing was planned, but he too was worried about me. He did not out of malice. That made me forget what I was angry with him.
"So it's my turn?".
"What?" his voice was confused.
"Apologize."
"What you have to apologize?".
"You're not angry with me?" I asked point-blank.
'No'.
seemed sincere. I heard him frown.
"Did not you see Alice when you come back?".
"Yes. Why?.
"takes her Porsche?".
"Of course not. This is a gift. " It seemed that I had insulted him.
[...]
"But I went to La Push."
"I know.
"And I skipped school."
"Me too.
I was careful to the tone of his voice. I got up slowly from the sofa and sat down on the bed beside him in the eye, trying to intuit the mood. "Where does all this tolerance?" I asked finally.
"I have decided that you're right. My problem was more than anything else ... some prejudices about the werewolves. I'll try to be more reasonable, I trust your common sense. If you say there is no danger, I believe you. "
"Wow."
"And the most important thing: I do not want this to become a barrier between us."
Without thinking to act so suddenly embraced him with happiness.
"Thank you Edward," I whispered. At first it was hard, then returned the hug cuddle.
"Even to make her happy, Miss Swan," she whispered in my ear kind. I smiled.
"Well," murmured indifferently. "Do you think that you will return soon to La Push?".
untied the embrace to study her reaction.
"Yes, I think so."
"Okay," he said with a shrug. "I arrange properly. Otherwise remain nearby, in the case litigaste, "a restrained smile.
"From what I understand, the only subject on which we are fighting vampires."
"argument far that avoidable, "said thoughtfully. "Yes, I think my presence just outside our borders, and could be very useful," he added gaping smile. The teeth reflected the moonlight as if they were crystal.
"Are you going to take me and pay me a resume every time?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
"It 's a possibility," he said with his crooked smile.
"Okay, if it makes you feel more comfortable I'm."
'Quiet? Do not overdo it, Bella. However it's better than seeing you in ways so daring escape. "
smiled and he smiled back.
"Well, you're tired, I let you rest." He started to rise. The I put a hand on her to restrain him.
"Wait. Is there anything else I wanted to ask. "
"What?".
"Last night I spoke with Rosalie ...."
His body stiffened again. "Yes. When I got there he was thinking. You have been very upset, right? ".
[...]
"He talked a bit about '... the period that your family has spent at Denali."
There was a brief pause was taken by surprise. "Yes?".
"He mentioned something about you ... and a band of vampire ...."
waited a long time, but no answer.
[...] "He told me that you did not show any preference. But I was wondering, here is if any of them had done. Show a preference for you, I say. "
Again, it was silent.
"Who?" I asked. "Or was it more than one?".
No response. She stared at me blankly, as if he was still waiting to hear the application.
"Alice tells me. I'll go ask her. "
I tried to get up, but her cold hand squeezed my arm and pulled me, making me sit down again. "It's late," he said. His voice was new. A kind of nervous, maybe a little 'embarrassment. 'In addition I think Alice is out .... "
[...]
"Then why do not you tell me anything?".
"Because there's nothing to say."
"Who was that?" I insisted.
sighed. "Tanya showed some interest. I let her know, very courteous and a true gentleman, which is not reciprocated. End of story. "
She refused the advances of a vampire certainly better than before? Not that I disliked it, but it was difficult to understand. "Tell me something. How is Tanya? ".
"Like all of us. White skin, golden eyes, "he answered too quickly.
"is extraordinarily beautiful."
chuckled. "For human eyes, yes, I suppose," he said indifferently. "You know what, though?".
"What?".
She brought her lips to my ear and gave me his cold breath tickled. "I prefer brunettes."
"Waw, a blonde."
'reddish blond. Just it's not my type ', corrected with a grin. "Why these questions?".
"Curious, though I am not surprised that someone has been interested for you," beautiful as you are, I thought.
"What bothers you?" He asked smugly.
"Maybe a little '. Infuse I have not forgotten you and I .... " M'irrigidì.
It was the best time of my life. Before that I had never even kissed a boy, or felt emotions like that. However, I recalled what it was frustrating to kiss Edward. Every kiss did not last more than ten seconds, you could not let go and feel the passion that we want both. Certain physical contact was forbidden, taboo. It was good to kiss him, it made me dizzy. But we could not go that way, it was not right. It is not as it should be.
"Me neither. And 'one of the things that I will never forget, "she said interrupting my thoughts with his velvety voice. I gently stroked the face profile wrapping them with his amber eyes. His touch caused me no more chills, some time ago, I had reaccustom, and he was happy. That, however, was the first time when I felt a sense of peace, as if we had finally reached a truce. It was probably on its yield. I felt a sense of victory, but also of hope. Would have been nice if they had reached an armistice, a peace between two people as beautiful and important vital organs.
I could no longer deny to myself when I held at Edward.
unfounded, the closeness I had convinced a large part of Restu my confidence. My love for him had become an irrepressible affection, and to see him suffer for that change, put a strain on the prison of the old Bella. One that would offer him his soul in exchange for his love.
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