Chapter 19
Symbols
was all ready. I had prepared
trip to a day "Jacob" and two days "Alice".
Charlie had offered to accompany me to La Push in the early morning, to take Billy for a fishing offshore and after dinner was provided by Sue Clearwater. Jacob have I seen her with her golf in due course.
Collin and Brady, the two youngest werewolves, would remain to protect the lake where they would go, despite kids were just thirteen. All in all, Charlie was more secure than any inhabitant Forks.
would all be over soon, one way or another. I had to be patient and do not ruin my day with Jacob. This would see tomorrow, but on one occasion less quiet.
Charlie Black dumped me close to home, and while he remained in the car with the engine running, I knocked on his door. I opened Billy, and when he saw me he smiled wide and bright, worthy of his son.
"Hello Beautiful! Come, embrace the facts. "
His behavior left me puzzled. Given the situation, which was well aware, gaiety I felt incredibly out of place.
I bent down to embrace him, and I squeezed.
When I left, I noticed that the hand held copper hidden in the sleeve of a leather jacket.
"What did Billy's hand? Are you hurt? ".
"No Bella, I just cold. I'm not hot as Jacob laughed and winked at me. I raised an eyebrow, before his tone too excited.
Charlie made two beeps, and pushed the wheelchair up Billy all'autopattuglia. When Charlie placed it on the seat, I waved out the window and headed the lake in the world more secure.
I watched them leave, relieved by the thought that at least they were as safe as they wanted. Then she felt the warm arms of Jacob, surrounded by the back.
"Ben arrived, Miss Swan," she whispered in my ear kind. I smiled, feeling once again his voice hoarse.
"Thank you for your hospitality, Mr. Black." I turned her face and kissed me.
We spent a beautiful day, almost forgot what we were expecting in a few hours. We went out with Paul, Quil, Claire, and Kim Embry, and not all the time we would laugh at the jokes that you pulled the werewolf, and romantic misadventures of Paul.
It seems likely that no bear.
The child she enjoyed a world, it was wonderful to hear her laugh with his lovely voice. Every now and then gave me the cutest kisses on the cheek and smiled, saying: "Bea, bea tei as" trying to say "Bella, you are beautiful." I had never spent a day so enjoyable and peaceful in my life.
the contrary, to lunch at Jake's house was something more intimate.
I pointed down to personal preparation, a bit 'as he had for breakfast the previous morning. He helped me to cook, was an excellent assistant and had volunteered as the official taster of my kitchen.
I do not know how many spoons I gave him on the knuckles for not doing so bring the pots.
was a scene so nice and friendly, looked like a newlywed couple. The strange thing was that I did not feel at all uncomfortable. It was all by itself, in a way so natural.
was really as easy as breathing.
After lunch we decided to take us to the famous dive from the rocks, but we ate a lot, and would have been the last straw if I were dead simple to congestion rather than the hands of a hungry vampire revenge.
"Would you like to relax in my room? I swear this time I fall asleep ", he proposed raising a hand. I laughed, remembering the day he collapsed on the sofa.
I opened the door and sit out in his double bed. It was definitely better than my poor single bed, at least we were both. I curled up on her hot body, and kept me glued to him with one arm and stroked my hand free.
was impossible not to relax.
is one of the occasions mentioned by Edward exploitable.
"Edward told me something about you ..."
stiffened. "Probably a lie."
"Oh, really? You do not become the vice-pack? ".
"Ah. Yeah, "said relaxing.
"Why did not you ever talk?".
"Why should I? It is not important. "
I do not know. Why? That's interesting. How does it work? How is it that Sam has become the alpha and beta on ... you? ". Jacob smiled
of my terminology invented. "Sam was the first, is the oldest. It is logical for him to take responsibility. "
frowned. "But then the second should not have been Jared or Paul? They have turned in front of you. "
'Well ... it's hard to explain, "Jacob replied evasively.
"Try."
sighed. "More than anything else is a question of lineage, you know? One thing old-fashioned. The importance of having had some grandparents here.
I remembered the story told by Jacob, long time ago, when neither he nor I knew anything about werewolves. "I thought you said that Ephraim Black was the last chieftain of the Quileute?.
"Exactly. Because he was the dominant male. You know, technically, Sam is the head of the whole tribe now? ". Rise. "How absurd traditions."
I thought for a second and tried to reassemble the puzzle. "But you also said that your father was the voice heard in council, because it was grandson of Ephraim, is not it? ".
"So?".
"If it is a matter of descent ... because the head is not you?".
Jacob did not answer. I looked up searching for her, but he would not cross it.
"Jake?".
"No. It is up to Sam. " [...]
"Why? His great grandfather was Levi Uley, no? Levi was also an alpha? ".
"Alpha is only one ' answered automatically.
"And Levi was it?".
"A sort of beta, I suppose." He quoted my words with a grimace. "Like me."
"It makes no sense."
"Never mind."
"I understand." Finally
Jacob crossed my confused look and gave up. "Yes. Alpha should be me. "
raised my eyebrows. "Sam does not want to go back?".
"Not at all. I just did not want me on. "
"Why not?".
frowned, uncomfortable with the question.
"I do not want to know, Bella. I never accepted that everything changes. I did not want to become a legendary chieftain. I did not want to be part of a pack of werewolves, much less become their guide. When Sam showed me the offer, I have not accepted. "
I stared at him, and I was thinking for a few seconds.
"But I thought I was happier. What all this will go well, "he whispered at last.
[...] "Yes. It is not so bad after all. The funny things out there, for example, the day Saturday. But at first it was like being drafted into a war we did not know existed. I had no choice, you know? And there was no alternative. " He shrugged. "Anyway, for now are happy. That's done, and besides I could trust someone else in my place? Better employment of people. "
I felt strangely in awe. My wolf boy was much more adult than I thought. As Billy the evening before the fire, I felt in him something majestic that I never suspected.
"Chief Jacob," I whispered, smiling with that combination of words.
He raised his eyes to heaven.
"Now it's your turn," he said teasing.
Aggrottai the eyebrows. "For what?".
"I think it's time for engaging in that famous debate about your recurring dream. They are incredibly curious, what is it? ".
"Oh, that," I mumbled, caught off guard. Riaffondai face in the crook of his neck to make it easier to confession, and began to tell.
'It is a dream that has had several developments, to tell the truth. Depending on the time that I lived, the circumstances were changing, but the context was always the same. It was very often, and it is strange that now does not do it anymore. "
Yes, it was a bit 'that I did not do more than dream. Since Jacob kissed me the first time.
"Interesting, continuing," he pressed.
I swallowed and cleared his throat. Who knows where we would take, that argument.
"Usually I was in the woods of La Push, at night, but I was never alone. Were you and Edward. He was on my left and invited me to join him, while you were on my right, and you did the same thing. The difference was that Edward was just ... a vampire, those kind of films. "
"Better than what it really is," Jacob muttered.
"Stop. Instead you were smiling and surrounded by a light that infuses warmth, and I was exactly in the middle. At first I was indecisive, sometimes I was attracted by the part of Edward, sometimes from your own. I hold out your hand that gives me great security, protection, loyalty. Until one night I found myself close to you, without a single step that I did with my legs, "I told her.
"What chance did this change?" He asked curiously. I followed closely. I thought about it.
"The day that Alice warned me of their return."
"Would you say that the day you know that your blood-sucking would come back to you ... did you come to me instead of him? "he asked incredulously.
"Yes In a sense I was happy that I had forgiven me for my foolishness, and that you had said you would fight to the last drop of ... ", did not finish the sentence.
Those words, uttered during a battle where he really fought for me, made me shudder. "Well, you'd do anything to be with me," I murmured in a faint voice.
Jacob held me stronger and I lifted her face. His eyes sparkled. "Bella, Calm down. Take a deep breath and tell me what happened next. "
I tried to follow his advice and pick up the thread of discourse.
"The problem was that I could not get carried away, though I am ordered to do so. Because I loved him, I felt connected and attracted to you, but something stops me. Then he realized that my block was just Edward. That part of me was still attached to him at that time. I'd left behind, but too little time. Then when he reappeared in my life, I found myself again in the middle, uncertain and frustrated as before, "I confessed, shaking his head.
"Then There have been other changes? "he asked.
"Yes Later, when I spoke of imprinting, I was so scared to want to give you up, "I murmured. Jacob raised his eyebrows but did not let him talk. "But I continued to stay by your side, while Edward was still farther. Apart from when I took away from La Push, with the excuse of the unpredictability of the werewolves, "I added quickly. Jacob had his eyes and snorted, annoyed by that memory. "So I was already aware that the nearest to you Edward. Although frequent it more, I want you on my side, I just do not know how well regarded. If a friend or something more. The last dream then, that as a result of imprinting, was the most strange, but I think I understand. "
Jake looked at me more relaxed, taken from my account. "I like your dreams. Reveal the emotions you're looking for every way to choke, "he said.
hit and sunk.
I made a face and went on. "The last time I dreamed that, as usual, I've been close, but you were serious, not more smiling as always. The hand was still ready to accept mine, and as usual I did not understand. Perhaps that was why you were serious, it was obvious for you that I would not have taken, or perhaps because the problem was with your quirks of wolves, and then you felt responsible for it. In any case I knew that Edward had nothing to do nothing. In fact, he was far away. I looked at his hands, and I saw that they were blocked by an invisible chain. I could not see, but I knew it was there. That chain was ... I think. "
"Fear," interrupted peaceful.
"Yes Fear of imprinting. It was the only thing that prevented me to choose, "I concluded.
"I bet you also know it was invisible," said, sketching a smile of defiance.
"I want to hear from Alice," I said knowing where he was going. "If you're wrong we'll remain worse than continuing to believe that sooner or later you'll lose. Do you understand? ".
Jake shrugged. "Okay, we'll see if one day your friend will deign to answer."
Yeah. The time
who had requested it, was not very helpful. But he had his reasons. Maybe when it's all over, I would do this favor.
Jacob stood in silence to meditate, as he continued to stroke his arm. I felt his heart accelerate.
"You know, I think I know why you stopped making that dream," she said. "It is not difficult to imagine."
"What do you know of my dreams?" I asked annoyed.
"Why did you choose. Then those dreams have no more reason to exist. You are no longer undecided. Only you have missed a particular at all irrelevant, "he said. His heart did not stop accelerating.
"What?".
Jacob did not answer.
I laid her on the bed next to him and stood up. Then he took two steps back, as his stanzatta permitted. I understood what he wanted to do, and my heart beats fast as his.
With a smile on his lips, his eyes bright and eager, he stretched out his hand to me and laid her down.
Just like in my dream.
froze in surprise.
He was right. I stopped making that dream, before making most important thing.
Inside of me my heart was singing, and I felt my eyes swell with tears.
"Jake," I murmured.
"Come, Bella. Take my hand, "she whispered.
slowly got out of bed and approached him. My legs were shaking, and tried to drive back the tears of emotion that were pressing to get out.
Now I was close, like in my dream.
first I stared at his eyes, shiny, as if my emotions had invested too. The smile trembled, as well as his chest.
Then I stared at his hand a large, relaxed, friendly atmosphere.
Sure. There were no
chains that block my hands.
There were vampires who shared my heart.
It was just me and Jacob. And our love blossomed just as the rarest and meravoglioso flowers.
With a sigh, shaking the tears broke free.
He took her hand.
How I should have done long ago.
Jacob shook and pulled me to him, and shook in a tender embrace.
"Thank you for giving me my dream," I sobbed, his shirt soaked from my tears.
I lifted her face and started kissing me, softly, long as I cradled between his strong arms. Then he left my lips and stroked my face with both hands, while I remained connected to his body with his eyes closed.
the Me should have been cut, to get away from him.
"Now you will realize my dream?" He asked kindly.
"If you want my heart, it's already yours," I answered without thinking. He laughed and kissed me again.
He left my face and got rid of my grip to easily move to open a drawer in the nightstand. I looked at him confused as he crouched down to rummage inside.
When he found what he was after he stood up, took a breath and rejoined me. She held her hand tight in a fist, but when I was close enough, he opened it.
In his bronze palm, shone a small wedding. It was old but in excellent condition, as if he had kept in a glass case.
"It was my mother, Sarah. I've had it when she died. It is the most precious object I own, the only memory I have of her material, "he confessed. "The worship him.
Sarah Black.
not remember his face, I was too young when I made mud pies with Jacob, as a child. But one thing struck me about her. Her smile. Solar, cheerful and wonderful.
identical to that of Jacob.
"I can see it?" I asked. I smiled.
"Sure."
took the faith from his hand to me and I turned between the fingers. I realized that there was an incision inside. I tried to read it, but it was a bit 'worn by time.
"It says," I'll love you forever ", 'muttered Jacob, noticing my distress.
"I did not think Billy was so romantic," I said pleasantly surprise. Jacob smiled, then pulled out something from the back pocket of his jeans and offered it to me.
"But it is the faith of Billy," I exclaimed in amazement.
not raised if ever, it was much more consumed than Sarah.
"Yes, my mother had cut the same sentence. I asked if I gave it to me. I had never seen him so happy, "he said.
I felt his eyes on my face as I watched the faith Billy.
I looked up to his bewildered.
"Why did you ask such a thing?" I asked. I tried to bind her words to the radiant face of Billy and his hidden hand in the sleeve of his jacket.
still did not find a link with what he was doing.
Jacob looked at me intently, as her voice.
"I noticed your reaction last night, when Charlie gives the word boyfriend. And I know you do not like parties pompous and expensive gifts, but prefer simple objects made with feeling and bonfires on the beach with friends. I'm not a person who forces her to bind me, I will not ask her to marry me, because if you react well to a simple word, I dare not imagine what a scandal would you do if only I tried, "he said, then shook his head and laughed nervously on the last consideration, while I stared open-mouthed.
"So I thought that if I got the most precious object that I have you, who are the most precious girl, and maybe pretend that you gave us the ring to me Billy, we were going to a Spiece symbolic union. One thing from which you can always run away at any time but for me it means something more. And 'since I'm in love with you, I wanted to give you the ring of my mother. Knowing you are wearing his ring, would make me happier than the werewolf of this world, for life. And now let me know if you would like to accept this gift, set up this little drama, and satisfy my desire so bizarre, "he continued almost without taking breath and incredibly embarrassed.
I stood staring at him throughout his long dazed and confused speech.
I had never thought of a symbolic wedding. Without a lavish reception without an embarrassing statement old-fashioned. Without something that would have terrified me until the chosen date.
without feeling compelled to tell Charlie and Renee. The proposed
Jacob had caught me totally unprepared. He asked me to do something instantaneous, spontaneous, something that concerns only us.
One thing that against all odds ... I liked it.
"Bells?" Jacob called me, worried.
did not answer.
"Wow, even something as informal traumatize you?".
still not out of my mouth no sound came out. Jake snorted
disappointed. "Go well, aside everything I have told you, "said dark and approaching the hand to pick up the ring from my Sarah.
clenched in a fist and not let him go.
Jake raised an eyebrow, confused.
"Sorry," mumbled. "I was just trying to understand how you managed to find the right compromise between the idea of marriage and I have a way to make me accept what I ask, without making a fuss," I said incredulously.
Jacob rolled his eyes.
"You mean ... you agree?" He stammered.
"Yes, I accept ..." uttered with great surprise.
"Everything? Even the staging? "He asked with his eyes bulging and joy in the face of copper.
"Above all, the staging," I said still in shock.
'Oh my God, Bella, "he cried off the ground in one of his hugs stritolanti and fly around the room. She laughed and cried with joy.
I had never seen him so happy.
Then, when he stopped cheering, I rested on the ground and allowed me to wipe her tears. Smiled happily, and seemed to radiate the light of my dream, so intense was his joy. An infectious joy, because I felt happy.
Then he cleared his throat and tried to compose himself, rubbing his face and making a few breaths. There we gave a few seconds to regain a bit 'of seriousness, then I took the ring from the hands of Sarah and I gave to Billy.
closed his eyes, waiting for the right time to say something. Then he opened his eyes bright and deep on my own.
"Isabella Marie Swan," spoke with obvious tremor in his voice. "You that remains at your side until your love will allow me? ".
"Yes, I want it," I answered automatically, with his voice trembling.
was just a symbolic thing, without any legal or otherwise. One thing that the eyes of others, would appear as insignificant as an exchange of rings between two young lovers.
The phrase he had said, was entirely invented.
But it was that his heart was sincere, realistic and somehow, it had a certain solemnity.
raised ring and her mother, her eyes swollen with tears, put it in my finger.
fit like a glove.
looked at the small object from the immense significance, and his eyes flooded with tears again. But I had to hold back, because it was my turn to speak.
"Jacob Black," uttered with bated breath. "You want me to stay by your side until your love will allow me?" I said, in his words, like a true oath.
"Damn if I want," she said and burst out in nervous laughter. I lifted the ring of his father and slipped on her finger.
But he came.
"Oh no, Jake." We laughed again.
returned to rummage in his bedside table and I pulled out a leather cord, similar to the one that had fastened below the calf. We slid the ring of Billy as a kind of pendant and gave it to me, then bent down and turned the tie around his neck necklace improvised.
"So it's even better," said gird up your loins and dragging on the bed. We lay down the side by side, and looked into his eyes while he went on. "When I shall make will not risk breaking it between the legs," said with a beaming smile.
"Both Billy that I could kill you," I replied. I felt strangely happy after that symbolic wedding. Suited me more. Besides, I've never been very conservative.
"Yes, but it still lacks one thing," he observed, but it gave me time to ask What? I found his soft lips on mine.
right, missed the kiss. It could not be symbolic, too.
And even that could be the traditional simple kiss his lips.
was sweet and gentle, almost shy. Like our first kiss. His hands me
caressed her hips, then climb up the back and hold me tight to his chest. I felt the warm muscles to contract out from under his shirt at the slightest movement.
But this time, it was my kiss to change, not his.
We were alone, and we remained still for several hours.
now the diving from the rock did not care anymore.
At that moment, I did not want to do is kiss Jacob, in a comfortable bed, and drifting from the heart in the same direction of my desires.
lifted the hem of his shirt, and stroked her bare back and feverish. She felt his grip get stronger and more determined his lips.
like mine.
I went looking for the edge of his jeans, and when I found him, I had lever to open the button that closed them.
The fire broke out in the body of Jacob, instantly.
I almost had to unbutton, but suddenly his lips stopped and I stopped the wrist.
"Wait," he mumbled with shortness of breath.
"What?".
"Excuse me, are not very practical ..." he said sheepishly. "But you know what happens if ... I mean, I'm a man and you a woman, maybe we should ... but I have nothing to prevent you from ... well I'd like to have a family, but now it seems a bit '... do you understand? ".
not find the words, but understood what he meant. Usually these speeches they pulled in the ball with Renee.
"Yes, if I try. But I have not been organized. They should not be the guys who are prepared to find? ".
Jacob blushed and looked away. "In theory, yes. But I ... Bells, I've never done anything like that, and I did not think Today you and I ... "she said faintly. Then he decided to raise their eyes and deep blacks on my own.
"You ... you want it?" He asked uncertainly.
"Yes," I replied awkwardly. "And ... you?".
Jacob did his eyes. "You really need to ask? I'm not a piece of ice, "insinuated.
"No," I whispered, sensually. "You are living flame."
"You bet," muttered dark, while I squeezed her thigh hard. For a moment I thought he wanted to tear my jeans off.
Then a strange light lit up her eyes. "Be right back!" He said taking off the bed.
"Wait, Jake," but already heard the door close.
But where was gone? Just at that moment?
I found myself alone in her bed while furiously banging his eyes in disbelief.
returned after less than five minutes to watch.
"Emily gave me this says that you can take," he said sheepishly. "Sorry, I had no alternative. I know nothing of these things to women, "he confessed, shrugging his shoulders and handing me a rectangular box. "My sisters have gone before you teach me some secrets."
"Well, desperate times ..." mugugnai red with shame and taking the pink box.
"How does a Caramellina so little to work it out?" He asked more to himself than to me.
I shook my head, embarrassed. "Do not worry, and is not a candy is an anti ... oh, but anyway you decide to shut up and come here? "I said running out of patience and catching for jeans. I pulled him towards me with all the strength I had.
Rise and climbed on the bed, intent to commit her lips in another way.
For some absurd reason, it was as if we had never stopped. The moment our lips found themselves, the passion was rekindled as before, if not more.
The forward took off his shirt off without him it would prevent me to take care of me in some other way, finally discovering his huge chest and perfect. The afternoon light
just came out from under the shutters down, creating a strange and romantic atmosphere.
I could admire his bronze and silky skin beneath my fingers out of curiosity, without which the light was too strong to be embarrassing.
studying the curves of the tense muscles with the fingers, while attending the shape of the lips full, soft and parted with the tip of the tongue. His breath hot and wild I entered the brain, and the rioters as a sock.
trembled when he went to kiss the sudden urge to chin, neck, who could not resist to take a bite, and among his chest filled up the abdominals of steel.
His fingers shook my blouse if you would like to reduce to shreds while her breathing became more heavy, and escaped a groan.
I was playing with fire, but I was determined.
I had changed my mind.
I wanted to sunburn.
I put my hand to the heart, and felt his chest rumble from the mad beats. I smiled.
"Calm down Jake," I murmured.
"How can I calm myself crazy if I do, Bella?" Replied panting.
"Then I'll stop," I whispered as a kind of challenge, and slowly walked away.
As I expected, with one click I move close to his chest, hot and vibrant.
"Do not talk nonsense, Bells."
Risi, but in his past does not look the same fun. His eyes
blacks as night and deep as the depths of the ocean, burning in my like never before.
I felt the sparks burn the skin, and my heart was beating fast as the wings of a hummingbird.
"Sure the candy work?" He asked.
"It is a dear ..." I was about to reply, but I fell silent in mid- word.
Write to kiss me with desire, and unbuttoned my blouse cotton. I did not need sweaters when I was with him, and I got used to the heat that radiated like a heater set to maximum.
I caught the unmistakable sound of torn fabric. And a button that tumbled onto the floor.
That combination of sounds, only increased the irresistible my aspiration to do so.
I found myself with just wearing jeans, but soon gave up also.
Li pulled with ease, then raised her with incredible speed. Only the inner
could divide us, now.
I watched spellbound, as I watched him with the same expression.
"... You are beautiful, Bells," he stammered stroking my hips.
"Never what you, Jake," I whispered kidnapped. With a sigh
savage rejoined me, and begin exploring.
His hands and his lips hot, passionate, and drew strange doodles on my naked body.
heave and I buckled under the glow of his mouth, and incredibly curious about my reactions.
knew my soul, but not my body.
Ed was determined to fully understand.
I felt mad at each experiment. When the panting
scratched on the back, we both had completely lost control of ourselves.
including the abandonment of the latest clothing that made it impossible to belong together.
And Jacob no longer had the strength to stop.
Since then, our bodies, our souls and our love became a single entity and indissoluble.
touch the sky with a finger more than once, and ecstasy was always different and unique.
The lights faded in the afternoon, and the day was coming to an end. But
Jacob and I both did not know what it meant more to stop.
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