Chapter 13
Confessions
The award is imminent. It was already June 4, and the school was plastered with colorful fliers which showed the long-awaited ceremony. And Alice was in high spirits for the festivities more for me than for herself. He knew that I would be angry if he tried to surprise me, so he has seen fit to inform me in advance.
In those few days I had remaining, I thought more than anything else to study along with Edward, which of course was an excellent teacher. From time to time hear Jacob, but did not have time to visit him, I had a lot of stuff to study for exams looming. He understood and he would like to have the same preparation to replace Edward as a teacher. Unfortunately
Jacob had not even made seventeen years, and was not even a diploma, while Edward was behind a century of studies on every conceivable topic. If anything I would I have to give private lessons to Jacob.
I went down to breakfast and I noticed that Charlie had already left. Adocchiai the newspaper and I pointed straight at him with the intention of shopping. Alice wanted to give tickets to the concert of the Tacoma, but there was clearly no longer a surprise. Alice had already thanked me when I had even forgotten my projects. This obsession with spying on her constantly my decisions, removed the sake of doing a simple surprise. I would have liked to amaze me, at least once.
next time I'm going to choose him with Jacob, it was my only chance to succeed.
However I do not let yourselves be discouraged by the small loss. I picked up the newspaper and decided to browse the contrary, the section of the shows, but a big title and highlight caught my attention. [...]
death and terror in Seattle
I read any item in shock.
The number of murders grew more brutal, relentlessly and without that there were common traits among the victims. In just three months, the dead had come to 39. The most savage serial killer who had never known, killed 48 people in 21 years. And the police chief had come to nothing.
The evidence is contradictory, the gruesome discoveries. A new band of criminals or just a vicious serial killer? Or something else, that investigators have not yet taken into account?
Only one thing is certain: in Seattle, something terrible is lurking.
Edward was concerned about me, if not more. He fears that the Volturi arrived to bring order into the situation. Would have been too close to us, and if they had wanted to visit his old friend Carlisle, would know me. For this reason, Alice kept under control them if they decide to move.
But there were too many things I could not see, was losing confidence in itself. I would have liked to help her get one of those insights which challenge all the pieces in place. But I had no ideas, and Edward had an urgent need to talk to Jasper for this situation. When we arrived
We found a house in Carlisle, Esme and Jasper concentrated on the news, but the volume was so low that I could not feel anything. Alice was squatting on the last rung of the ladder, with his face in his hands and an expression of despair. As we entered, Emmett came from the kitchen, completely at ease. Emmett is not frightened at nothing.
[...]
Rosalie appeared at the top of the stairs and fell hurry to get to my side and around her waist with his arm cold. She became very protective of me since he knew that I wanted to stay human. It was as if he saw me in itself, and the future he wanted to have if. But he dreamed of the future was far from my reality. I gave to Jacob, and I would not back together with Edward.
I would have been just a small, lonely and fragile human.
Carlisle shook his head. "I am worried. We have never interfered in such situations before. None of our business. We are not the Volturi. "
"I do not want the Volturi to be forced to intervene," said Edward. "We would not have enough time to react." Rose became dark and tightened his grip on my hips, how to protect the most precious treasures from the hands a thief.
"And all those helpless humans in Seattle," Esme murmured. "It is unfair to let them die like that."
"Ah," Edward said suddenly, turning her head slightly to look at Jasper in the face. "I had not really thought. I realize now. You're right, actually. Be ', this changes everything. "
I was not the only one who looked confused, but I was probably the only one not to have the air a little bored.
"Maybe it's better if you explain to others how things are," Edward said to Jasper. "What could be their end?" He asked, and walked up and down, staring at the floor, lost in thought.
I did not realize that he had raised, but Alice was now there, beside me on the other side than Rose.
"What are you raving?" Asked Jasper. "And what do you think?".
Jasper did not seem to appreciate all that attention. Uncertain, we looked at him one by one - all because they approached, curious cos'avesse to say. His eyes stopped on me.
"You're upset," he said, his voice deep but calm.
was not a question. Jasper knew my mood.
"We are all shocked," Emmett muttered.
"You must strive to be patient," said Jasper. "Even Bella must know with whom we deal." Then he moved his amber eyes on my worried.
"What do you know me, Bella?" He asked.
Emmett sighed and sank into the sofa play with extreme impatience. Rosalie joined him on the couch and sat down beside him.
"Not much," I admitted.
Jasper stared at Edward, who looked up to meet her.
"No," Edward replied to the question that the other had just thought. , "You know why Did not I ever told. But I think at this point it's worth it. "
Jasper nodded thoughtfully and rolled up the sleeves of her sweater ivory.
I looked at him, alert and confused, trying to understand what he was doing. Approached the pulse of the light cone the lamp beside him, with a finger followed the outline of a clear sign on the diaphanous skin.
enough for me a while to understand why the shape I was strangely familiar.
"Ah," I whispered. "Jasper, you have a scar identical to mine."
reached out and the silver crescent appeared sharper on my skin darker than his, marble.
Jasper just smiled. "I have several scars like that, Bella."
yet lifted the sleeve of her sweater to show a dense network of scars shaped teeth. That gesture made by his introduction to the history of man and vampire.
soldier was a young, strong, brilliant and charismatic. When at the time, legions of vampires were battling for possession of the territories with the highest demographic index, Jasper had been "recruited" by a trio of vampire. Maria, the one that transformed him, taught him everything he had prepared for the battle to satisfy his thirst for conquest. Together collect victories and even defeat, Jasper was unbeatable.
In addition to his combative stronger, was also involved in the training of infants and oppression the same when they became useless. For this he was so skilled in the fight against newcomers. But Jasper did not like most all of this, he felt depressed and that life had no meaning. So he decided to leave Mary and to travel in search of a purpose.
until he met Alice, and after the Cullen family.
"It's a nice story," I said.
Three pairs of eyes checked I was not crazy.
"I mean the last part," he defended. "The happy ending with Alice."
"Alice has made a difference", confirmed Jasper. "The climate is healthy for me."
But that moment of relief was only an interval.
"An army," whispered Alice. "Why do not you tell me?".
The others were again absorbed, focused on Jasper.
"I thought I was wrong in interpreting the clues. After all, what is the reason? Why would someone create an army in Seattle? There is no precedent here, no feuds. It makes no sense even from the point view of territorial claims no nothing from these parts. Some nomadic group passes through here every so often, but there is nobody to fight for this territory. No one to be resisted. I've already seen a situation like this. And there is no other explanation. In Seattle there is an army of newborn vampires. Less than twenty, I think. The problem is that I'm not trained. Anyone who has been to transform them has only instigated. The situation will get worse for sure. And the Volturi will intervene soon. To tell the truth, I am surprised that expect so much. "
"What can we do?" Carlisle asked.
"If we want to avoid involving the Volturi we remove all infants, and we must do now." Jasper's expression was hard. Now I knew what I knew his story would feel upset. "I will teach you how. It will not be easy to act in the city. Infants do not care to do things in secret, we do. This will impose limits that they have not. Maybe we can lure them with bait. "
"Maybe there will not be needed." Edward's voice grew somber. "It occurs to anyone that the only threat in this area that might encourage someone to create an army ... are we? ". Jasper
eyes shut, opened them and Carlisle, shocked.
"Nearby there is also the family of Tanya," Esme said, softly, as if he would accept the words of Edward.
"Babies are not devastated Alaska, Esme. We must consider the idea that we could be the target. "
"We are trying," Alice insisted. "Or maybe ... I do not know. Not yet. "
"What?" Edward asked, curious and excited. "What are you thinking?".
'Glimmers' said Alice. "When I try to understand what is happening, I can not get a clear picture, nothing concrete. But I'm having these visions lightning. Which are not precise enough to give me an idea. It is as if someone was changing opinion, and passed a series of actions to another so quickly you do not give me a clear perception .... "
"Indecision?" Jasper asked incredulously.
I do not know .... "
"I'm not undecided, "Edward muttered. "I know. Or at least someone knows that you will not have a clear premonition until they make a decision. Is there someone who wants to avoid. He's playing with the holes in your visions. "
"Who could tell?" Whispered Alice.
Jasper disrupted the proceedings. "We can not continue to ask questions, do not have time. We must act before they do the Volturi. We must act in advance if we do not want it get out of hand and that involves us all in a bigger thing, "these last words gave me a worried look. He feared for my life, and perhaps on charges of treason for making me into their world forbidden.
Everyone exchanged looks petrified by the tension.
"Well, we roared Emmett. "What are we waiting for?".
Carlisle and Edward looked at each other in agreement, then Edward nodded. "We need you, Jasper, you must tell us how to destroy them," he finally said Carlisle. His tone was hard, but I saw the terror in his eyes. No one more than he hated Carlisle violence.
This company needed allies, at least speed up the work and make it as quiet as possible Pià. Carlisle contacted the family of Tanya, but something in that conversation took him by surprise. Tanya and her family there because it would help Irina, his sister, was very close to Laurent and he had not survived the wolves.
"Do not even mentioned," Carlisle said sternly. "There's a lull in progress. They have not broken and neither do we. I'm sorry to know that ... Of course. We'll get well by themselves. " He hung up
without waiting for an answer. He continued staring at the fog.
"What's wrong?" Asked Edward Emmett.
"The link between Laurent and Irina was stronger than we thought. Now she is angry with the wolves because they killed him and saved Bella. He wants .... " He paused and looked at me from above.
"Go ahead," I said with all the calm as possible.
He looked grim. "He wants revenge. Destroy the flock. Exchange their help with our permission. "
"No!" I shouted.
"Do not worry," he said with a dry tone. "Carlisle would never accept it." He hesitated, then sighed. "And it myself. Laurent if asked for it, "this was almost a growl," and I still feel indebted to
wolves for what they have done. "
"Not good," said Jasper. "It's a battle on equal terms. We are better able to fight, but we are without them. We will win, but at what price? ". Alice folded her eyes tight for a while.
When I realized what he meant, I wanted to scream out loud.
We won but we lost. Someone would not have survived.
was already too late. The matter was already out of hand.
Despite the viewfinder of death was very focused on us, Alice persisted in organizing the party for my diploma. Meanwhile, Cullen hunted as much as possible in order to strengthen further. More blood absorbed, the strength increased. Not having found other allies, they could count only on themselves.
I did not want to make me turn to babysit when others are absent, so I decided to go to La Push, and Edward did not object. I did not see Jacob on the day of the fire, and all those concerns, I needed him. It was the only one, along with the powers of Jasper, able to make me forget my problems. I wanted to get back into that strange bubble indefinitely.
As usual, Edward walked me to the border and Jake was standing there waiting on her red sweater. Edward had a concentrated look, parked and fuming.
"What's wrong?" I asked, with his hand on the door.
shook his head. "Nothing." With half-closed eyes stared at the other car through the windshield. I had seen that look.
"You're not listening to what Jacob said, is not it?".
"It is not easy to ignore people screaming."
"Oh." I thought for a moment. "What screaming?" I whispered.
"I'm sure he will tell you," Edward said sarcastically. I insisted
willingly, but Jacob honked, two shots impatient. "What a rude," muttered Edward.
"Jacob has done so," I said before and I took Jacob to be likely to really try the patience of the vampire. In
up on the old Golf, greeted Edward, who at that distance seemed really upset by the horn ... or thoughts of Jacob.
But my eyes were tired, maybe I was wrong.
wished that Edward was following me. I wanted to both get out, shake hands and be friends: they were Edward and Jacob instead of vampire and werewolf. It was like hold two powerful magnets and groped to force nature to change their laws
... "Hey, Bells." His voice was cheerful, but tired. I looked carefully in the face as we move. He drove faster than I did, but slower than Edward, on the road to La Push.
Jacob was strange, looked almost ill. Her eyelids were swollen and his face contracted. Shaggy locks shot here and there the covered part of the face.
"All right, Jake?".
"I'm just tired," he tried to change the subject before being overwhelmed by a yawn. Then he asked: "What would you like to do today?".
I looked for a moment. "For now we simply from you, and we're a bit 'over there, "I suggested. It did not seem able to do anything else. "The bikes can take them later."
"Sure, sure," he said and yawned again.
Jacob's house was strangely empty and deserted. I realized that I considered Bill a sort of permanent installation there.
"Where's your father?".
"From Clearwater. We often goes by when Harry died. Sue feels very lonely. "
Jacob sat on the old couch that was little bigger than a chair and smashed on one side to me instead.
"Oh. It's kind of you. Poor Sue. "
"Yes ... has some problems at the moment ...." He had a degree of uncertainty. "With the children."
"Of course, Seth and Leah must be difficult to grow without a father ...."
nodded, lost in thought. He took the remote and switched the TV almost without thinking. He yawned.
"What are you, Jake? You look like a zombie. "
"I slept two hours last night, and four the night before," said.
slowly stretched his long arms folded, and when I heard the creaking joints. He stretched out his left arm along the back of the chair behind me, and dropped his head back against the wall, for
rest. "I'm destroyed."
"Why do not you sleep?".
He grimaced. "Sam is difficult. Do not trust your bloodsucker. For two weeks I am doing double duty, so far no one has touched me with a finger, but he does not want to know. So for now I'm alone. "
'double shift? To protect myself? Jake, not good! You must sleep. I'm safe. "
"It's not a problem." Suddenly his eyes became more vigilant. "Hey, then you found out who came into your room? Is there any news? ".
ignored the second question. "No, we have not found anything on the ... stranger visited me."
"Then I will continue to be vigilant," he said as he closed his eyes.
"Jake ..." I began to complain.
"Hey, it's the least I can do ... I swear that I will be your slave forever. A life. "
"But I do not want a slave."
not opened his eyes. "So what you want, Bella?".
"I want my friend Jacob. And I do not want half dead or injured in a misguided attempt to .... "
silenced me. "Think of it this way: I hope to find a vampire to kill, okay?".
did not answer. He looked at me, hoping to catch my own reaction.
"Just kidding, Bella."
I stared at the TV.
"So you have a special plan for next week? You are about to graduate. Great. It's great. " His face was contracted by fatigue, but managed to draw a smile.
'Well, I have to go to a party. About Me. " I said with a tone of disgust. "Alice loves the holidays and invited the whole town to his house. It will be terrible. " While talking
opened his eyes and a smile relieved her exhaustion. "I was not invited. I'm offended, "he poked.
"Given invited. In theory it would be my party, I should be able to invite those who think of me. "
"Thanks," replied sarcastically and closed his eyes.
"I'd love if I came," I said without hope. "Surely I could handle it better if it was my best friend zombie."
"Sure, sure," he muttered. "It would be really wise ... ...." His voice trailed off. A few seconds later he was snoring already.
Poor Jacob. I studied his face, lost in dreams, and I loved it. The defenses had shot down and sleep away the bitterness. It was back to being my best friend, what had been until they started that nonsense from werewolves. It looked much younger. Looked like my Jacob.
I curled up on the couch, waiting for his awakening. I was hoping that getting enough sleep to catch up on some 'of the sleep deprived. I took the remote, but my channel surfing to no avail. I stopped on a transmission kitchen, though I knew, as I watched, that I would never have committed up to that point to to eat at Charlie. Jacob continued to snore, a little 'stronger. I raised the volume of the TV.
I was strangely relaxed, almost sleepy. That house seemed more secure than mine, perhaps because no one would come looking for me. I squatted on the couch and I decided to take a nap. And I would really, if Jacob had not snored so loud. So instead of doze off, I let my mind wander.
exams were over, and had been for a walk. Except for math, but the final score mattered little. The school was now a memory.
collage that I thought of was waiting for me, how much time I'd been away, as this new world I would keep her away from home. Who knows how many other hearts will break Edward among girls university. All those who were there, although I hope that we find another addition to my.
And I wonder if Jacob would come to visit the campus. Obviously it. In my own risk, of course, too. Your soul mate could hide among the books in the library, or one of those courses overcrowding. He would go find her, no longer me.
I turned to watch him disconsolate, still asleep and snoring. Slowly stretched his fingers to move the hair free and informed dreamy face. It was so sweet, so peaceful, so helpless.
selfish I had been against him in the past, but at that moment I touched the peak.
did not want to find their half. I did not want to abandon me. I would not have borne to him. It would be like not seeing the sun rise as to fall into eternal darkness of a life incomplete. How to lose my alternative.
Without thinking I touched his cheek hot, hating myself and imprinting. I hated the imprinting because of fear, I was forced to block my emotions in the bud, and I hated myself because I did not have the strength to take risks. I had the courage to put lives at risk with the bike and dips, but not to attack the weakness of my heart.
But then if it were not for the imprinting ... then I would have chosen?
Jacob snored and turned away. His arm fell off the back of the sofa and m'immobilizzò glued to his body.
Good heavens, what it weighed! And how much warming. I started to sweat after a few seconds.
I tried to slip away from the grip without waking him, but I had to push it away and when he felt his arm fall opened eyes. He jumped up and began to look around, anxiously.
"What happened?" Asked bewildered.
"It was me, Jake. Sorry if I woke up. " And I thank you for having interrupted my thoughts , I thought.
He turned and looked at me and blinked confused. "What are you doing here?".
"Hey, bell'addormentato."
"Oh my God! I collapsed, I'm sorry! How long I slept? ".
"A few demonstrations of the cook. I lost count. "
He threw himself back on the sofa next to me. "Oh God, I'm really sorry."
I passed her hand over her hair, trying to revive a bit 'wild the disorder. "You should not feel guilty. I'm glad you managed to get some sleep '. "
He yawned and stretched. "These days are not good for nothing. No wonder Billy is never at home. I'm a boring .... "
"You're smart," I assured him.
"Now, we go out. I need to take a walk or collapse again. "
"Jake, go back to sleep. I'm fine. Name is Edward and I come to take me. " In saying that, I felt my pockets and realized that they were empty. "Man, I have to borrow the phone, I think I left it in his car." I began to prepare my things.
"No," he insisted, taking my hand. "Please remain. Do not you ever see. I can not believe I wasted all this time. "
As he spoke he pushed me off the couch and then he went on, lowering his head to pass through the door. While Jacob was sleeping, the temperature had fallen, the air was incredibly cold this season - perhaps a storm was coming. It seemed February, not June. The winter air
Jacob woke up completely, that he walked up and down in front of his house, dragging me along.
"I'm a fool," he muttered to himself.
"What is it, Jake? You fell asleep. " I shrugged my shoulders.
"I wanted to talk. I can not believe it. "
"Tell me now," he said.
Jacob stared at me for a moment into his eyes, then looked away quickly and turned to the trees. Almost seemed to blush, but it was not easy to say, it was his dark skin.
Suddenly I remembered the words of Edward about what Jacob was screaming in his head. I started nibbling on her lip, while the heart was beginning to increase his pace.
"Listen," said Jacob. "I do it a bit 'different'. He seemed to laugh at himself. "With more calm," he added. "I wanted to be attentive to details, but ..." and looked clouds, which were darker As time went on, "are now out of time. But I swear, I just can not me more if I do not speak the outbreak. "
laughed again, nervously. We were still walking, slowly.
"What do you mean?" I asked, but I wanted to shut my ears. My soul had already figured out where he was going. The grip is tightened around the key. And crying.
He took a deep breath. "I have something to say. You know already ... but I think I say so dovertela plain and simple. Just to leave no room for misunderstanding. "
I stopped suddenly, and he with me. Freed his hand from his grip and his arms crossed illusion that enough to protect me. I did not want my heart suffer damage.
lowered eyebrows and a shadow appeared in his deep eyes. Blacks were as pitch, when establishing the mine.
"Bella, I love you," he said in firm tone and secure. "Bella, I love you. I'm tired of waiting for things to be alone, I'm tired of this stalemate. Every day I pray that you will not see him again with the same eyes before he'll leave. I love you, I love to feel sick, Bella. And I want you to pick me instead of him. "
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